Friday will mark exactly 5 weeks since I submitted my graduate school application. I still have not found out whether or not I have been accepted. The school indicated that it would take 4-6 weeks for a decision to be made. So I really shouldn’t be worrying yet, but the waiting is making me crazy.
I’ve been stressing about this application since I decided to apply. I thought the worst would be the last week before submitting my application, when I was spending an hour or two each night working on my application essays. Trying to patiently wait for a response is definitely worse. If I wouldn’t have submitted my application on time, well, that would have been my fault. I could blame procrastination and laziness. I could say I might still apply next year.
Now that I have done everything in my power to be admitted to the program, I have to accept the fact that it just might not be enough. I might not be good enough.
In an effort to stay positive and avoid spewing molten crazy all over the place, I’ve been trying to keep myself distracted with running and reading (and binge watching Scrubs). Right now I am alternating between reading A Discovery of Witches by Deborah Harkness and Attachments by Rainbow Rowell. I will probably finish Attachments in the next couple of days and could really use some book recommendations! Plus any other distractions or relaxation techniques that you can offer would be so greatly appreciated.